From Billy's xanga: "I'm finally updating.

Yesterday i was volunteering at Payton my school to get my hours. I didn't do anything the whole day all i did was walk around my school go in girls bathrooms play with the tampon dispendors and play some foosball. Mar went to Payton wit me so it wasent' that boring. Later on during the day me alick and mar ditched the presentation thing and we just sat on a bench on the 3rd floor thne the security guard told us to go down so we started playing foosball. After that i had a talk wit mar about some personal stuff then me n mar went to chinatown. Me n mar went to chinatown and ate at ken kee wit amy. Then i went home and i took a shower and slept in the shower. Then i missed 2 calls and i called back mar and mar said she's right in front of my house. So mar wanted me to go to calvins house wit her and i was like aite fine. So i took the 62 to calvins house it was like 7 when i got there. Then some stuff happened then i stayed at mars house and basically just chilled there. I was there till like 10 then my parents picked me up and soem other stuff happened then i came home talked to mar a little and slept

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I forgot to tell you that mar was really happy at school

She got to go to the boys bathroom and took a piss in it.

I'm so proud of her "

LOL!  My version:
On Sat., I woke up at like 8 o'clock to go to the Chinese Symposium at Payton.  Halfway there I called Billy and I was like how do I get in and hes like you use the front doors and I'm like... um.. ok.  But when I got there I was so disoriented and confused that I just went inside and the ppl there made it so easy for me, I was like alrite... cool.  I stood in the door of the recital hall for like 10 minutes and then Calvin passed me at the door and I remember thinking, 'ok... now I can go in.'  So I went in there and I found Billy and we talked for a lil while and then Calvin came back and then I was like.. 'now, I gotta sthu.'  We listened to them talk for like 3 hours *snooze* then we got a 10 minute break and yea.. that wasn't fun cause Billy kept standing by the edge and I'm like "nooo...dun" and occasionally he would pretend to push me over the edge when I was brave enough to go near it. 
Then we went back in and listened to a lady perform and I was like listening to half of Billy's iPod and he listened to the other half.. then I needed to pee so I was like, I'm gonna go use the washroom and I stayed in there for like 30 minutes cause I peed then I called Amy and we talked.  I went back and when I got back there was already another break so I was like AWESOME!  And this time it was like a 20 minute break but yea.. instead of going back we snuck around the school with another guy named Alick and I went into the guys bathroom, which was fun.  And then I went back to use the washroom cause it was closer than the girls bathroom and plus there was like no one on the the 3rd floor anyway.  Came out and then Billy went into the girls washroom with me, went out and got Alick to go in too and it was hilarious cause Billy was saying how cool it was.  We went to sit on the benches and then the security guard told us to go downstairs so we went to play foosball and stuff which sucked cause the table sucks! 

Then we just like went back upstairs and like sat down to talk and that Alick guy went to do his own thing but Billy and I talked and surprisingly, when I was talking REALLY loudly about my relationship with Calvin.. he came up the stairs behind me.. I was like.. OH SHEIZ!  And then when Billy brought up Felipe, I was like (again, really loudly), "But the only reason I went out with Felipe was to get over Calvin".  I only yelled cause I thought Calvin left already but noo he was sitting 5 feet away.  Smart aren't I?  Anyway yea.. long story short eventually we went to Chinatown and met up with Amy at Ken Kee and after we ate, Billy left and Amy and I went shopping and then we um.. then I wanted to talk to Calvin cause I wanted to but I was scared of going alone cause I knew he wouldn't talk if Amy and Billy weren't there.  So Amy and I went to Billy's house to ask if he could go with us for my sake and he agreed.  Thank God!  Then we took the bus to Calvin's house and when we got there he ended up not letting Amy or Billy inside, I didn't expect him to let me in.. duh!   I didn't want to talk to him at first cause I was scared but Billy talked me into it.  So I talked to him on the phone and um.. he don't like that I'm so persistent and annoying but I'm like that for a reason.  I cried for a while, but then Billy cheered me up so I was ok again and then they went to my house and they made a HUGE mess in my room!  But its alrite, I kinda cleaned up a lil bit.  And we like just hung out on my bed.. imagine three ppl on my timy lil bit, poor Amy was so cold and she fell asleep and stuff... It was funny.  Then Amy and Billy left and yea.. when they got home, I called Billy and we talked and I called Amy and we talked after I talked to Billy and then at 2, I went to sleep.  That was my DAY!  It was fun and sad and bad and good.  I hope everything works out like its supposed to SOON.

I just wanna take the time to thank some ppl:

1) I wanna thank Billy, first off for being a such an amazing, wonderful friend even tho he says hes a jerk. I know hes not! U'r a great friend and I'm so grateful! I know u put up with a lot for me. I love u! Ur kindness makes me cry.  I love our talks... makes me feel understood AND helps me see the other side.

2) Amy, OMGOSH! U dunno the gratitude I have towards u. U like practically hold my life together and ur my reality person. I would be all over the place if u didn't ground me.  U are a great friend and I'm so very grateful! I love u so much!   I love our talks cause they help me see the other side.

3) CHI! You're a wonderful person! U'r so positive. It's almost crazy. I'm so glad I've got u. Thanks for listening to me cry for like 20 minutes.. I know its hard to listen to someone cry.  I know u don't have a lot of time on ur hands and I know u don't really know what to do but I'm so grateful that u try. I love u!!!   I love our talks cause you're so positive and I'm just full of joy and hope and stuff afterwards! 

As to why I'm so annoying in Calvin's point of view:  I'm dedicated because I still love him.   It is as simple as that and to win his heart again, I've got to be persistent, whether he likes it or not.  Cause I know he still loves me and he just doesn't want a few things to happen: 1) His pride and ego to be damaged.  And I can understand why he feels like its a bad thing.  They're both too inflated.  2) To feel restrained, but he doesn't get that that won't happen cause I'm different now.  He says he doesn't want me in his life cause he doesn't want to be restrained, doesn't that just mean that he still loves me but doesn't think that I've changed so he can't have me as a girlfriend?  I've changed and he doesn't want to realize that cause he doesn't have faith in me.  3) He doesn't want to fall again, thats why he won't talk to me face to face cause he thinks he'll fall again. 
I love him, and it sucks cause hes being mean.  I've been so depressed cause I want him to admit that he loves me.  I know that sound egotistical, but I have faith in him. Why can't he have faith in me?

-MarMar